Freedom From Food

I just stepped on the scale and almost cried. I lost 7 lbs! As a recovering binge eater/bulimic, this is AWESOME news. I have noticed too, that snacks I have bought 2 weeks ago are still on the shelf. Maybe even 3 weeks ago. This is also a first for me in about 2 years. Usually when I buy a snack item, it's gone in a day or so. The entire box/bag. I'm so proud of myself!!! Does this mean I'm healed of all eating disorders? When can I actually say I'm healed, anyways? I mean how do you know when you've fully recovered? Or are you always in recovery?

Wow, what a nice feeling I'm experiencing right now. I just feel so much more relaxed with my relationship with food, and my body. I'm not obsessing anymore about every little calorie (like I used to). I used to mentally add up in my head how much I ate for the day, and how much I had left to eat. Isn't that sad? Now I just eat what I want. For example, I used to purposely not eat cheese or peanut butter because it was "fattening" but you know what, f-that. I had a Subway sandwich the other day with Pepperjack cheese (for the first time in probably 10 yrs) and you know what, it was f*cking good too. haha. So the hell with it you know. I think that's why I'm losing weight, too. Because I'm not depriving my body of anything now, so I don't crave anything. I hardly even eat sugar anymore, and I've been eating salads like crazy. STRANGE!! I love this newfound freedom!!

Woot!!!